Well, I had hoped to be further along than this, but I’m not.
Its 6:10 in the morning, and this is where I’m at.
I’m having a hard time getting anything done because my associates seem to think my only activity should be whatever they want me to do at that given moment.
No one seems to understand that I won’t be here to give them what they want if I don’t get my house clean.
The only thing they seem to care about is what they want at this very moment. They don’t seem capable of thinking beyond this moment.
Or is it that they want me to be locked up. Could they want me to be put in a mental hospital? Or am I being paranoid?
Or do they think I’m lying and they’re calling my bluff?
Could it be that they just really don’t have a single feeling about it one way or the other? That in their mind I’m only here to serve them?
Do they believe they could find someone just as good if not better than me to take my place in their life?
Do I want people in my life that I question this way?
Why do I have people in my life the treat me this way?
Starting right now, I am helping no one until my apartment is done and I am able to help without juggling anything in my life. Those that leave will only make space in my life for me.
I think this will be the first step to healthy relationships.
I just have to tidy up the paint job and put on a sealer of some kind and these babies will be done.
Well, I think that catches you up.
Until next time…