I have found cracks and fissures in the foundations of my life and my marketing.
The only thing I can do is tear it all apart and start over. The worst problem with both of them is neither is based on the real me. They weren’t authentic.
Not Based On The real you
You may be wondering how it’s possible to live life and not have it based on the real you. After all, even the most troubled people base their lives on the real them, right? They decide what they like and don’t like, right? That has to be the real them, wouldn’t you agree?
Well, in my case, yes and no. I make decisions about what I like and don’t like, but not because I enjoy it or don’t enjoy it.
I don’t know how to explain any of it other than to bring you into my life and let you see what is happening, what I’m thinking, what I feel, my reaction, and what I do or don’t do. I will do my best to explain why, but, as you know, most of our why’s are buried deep in that dark abyss we call subconscious.
I must warn you. You may be learning more about me than you want to, but, then again, so will I.
Start where you are
It may not seem like it to you, but discovering the real you is a scary thing. It’s like meeting a long-lost relative for the first time. You feel like you should love them, like you should care, but you don’t. You don’t really feel anything except worry. You don’t know what your worried about, but you feel it just the same.
Doing this publicly, brings both terror and comfort. I’m terrified the disaster my mother said I was will be unveiled for all to see. Yet, it’s a comfort knowing there are others desiring to discover who the real me is.
I imagine you’re like me, hoping to find someone worth knowing.
We are beginning a journey which will take us through the mind and life of a woman who is in search of writing and publishing books she can be proud of, herself, connection with others, relief from addiction, and help with mental illnesses.
I am going to aim for posting once a week. I think that will be slow enough for me to get things done in life and quickly enough to progress nicely.
Each week I will describe an event. I will do my best to inform you of the inner experience along with the outer one.
Until next time…